My rambling mind today

Everyone wants power. I mean who doesn't want power; I know I certainly do.  All too often though, we give away our greatest power to other people. Impossible!! Never!! I know that's what you're thinking. Sadly, its true. We allow other people to determine what makes us happy and that is truly the saddest thing of all. When our happiness begins to rely solely on what another does, or says, we will never be happy, People will always say things that will unintentionally hurt us and sometimes the intent behind their words and actions is to crush us. 

There is a freedom in looking deep within you to discover who you truly are, to discover those things that truly make you happy and pursuing them. You see, not only does it centre you and ground you, it actually improves your physical and emotional health. Once you realise that happiness is a personal decision; Yes I said decision. And yes, I can already hear you dismissing me as an idealist who is unrealistic but hear me out. Once you decide that you will be happy because you are alive, you've had at least one meal today, you have people around you who care for you and also mainly because YOU ARE ALIVE!!! You only need to be alive cos each new day is just a chance to try again and to overcome whatever trials you're facing.

Let me also say this to the sceptics. Yes. I know this is the hardest thing you are probably ever going to do. I know first hand that the beginning is so tough, it's easier to just go back to the way things were. but trust me when I say that if you stick to it, it gets better, it gets easier and u suddenly realise, you're not forcing the happiness, you really truly are happy. It doesn't mean what others do or say no longer hurt you, it just means you refuse to let it get to you. So there are days you will be severely hurt by the words and actions of the people around you. Forgive them and move on. Unforgiveness is a sure way to remain unhappy. It is toxic and kills you. And more than that, the person you are so upset at more often than not either has no idea or simply doesn't care. Forgive people and move on. Your sanity and your health will thank you. So it's okay to be sad, and its okay to cry. Being strong does not preclude these things. What is not okay though, is staying sad and allowing whatever it is to keep you down. you know why? Because that's a sure fire way to become depressed. I have seen depressed and I will never wish it on my worst enemy (If you are at that point where you feel zero hope, you're probably depressed. Reach out and talk to someone. Please. Youra life is too important. If you know someone who seems to be loosing their joy and will to live, please reach out and talk to them and listen. Nothing is too trivial and there is nothing rational about depression. Listening to someone could save their lives. Please show people this little act of kindness. I cannot stress it enough).

The journey to this kind of happiness that comes from within is a life long journey but the good news is it truly gets easier. So be grateful for the good days, and be grateful for the not so good days. Then proceed to learn from them. When I respond, "I am blessed" these days to someone asking me "how are you doing?", its because I truly am blessed. And even though this has been a rough year for me. A truly truly rough year, I can say I am blessed and mean it because this rough year gave me the push to finally decide that my happiness should never depend on other people. I pray you find strength in your trials. That they cause you to grow and not hide and that the difficult times truly make you better, never bitter. 

Selah,
Mira

May grace and blessings never be far from you. And may love, kindness and compassion be the language with which we speak to each other.